There’s too much beauty to quit.

Like the idiot that I am, I watched Pathology and Stay yesterday at home, while the rest of my family either stayed in church or went to an anime convention in the mall.

So.

I wanted to watch Pathology when it first came out in theaters a couple of months ago, but only because of Lauren Lee Smith. I’ve loved her since her Mutant X days, and though I’m over the fact that they killed her off after the Season 2 finale (she said in a later interview that it was her decision to resign because she thought the show was going nowhere… apparently she was right), I still wanted to see her other performances. Since I don’t think I’m all up for the L Word idea (though I think the short clip where Erin asked Lara out for a date was pretty cute) and I’m still too scared to actually watch Lie with Me, Pathology was the next best thing, it being an international release and all. I would have tried getting hold of her other films, but I’m not much into downloading films released only in the US and Canada.

Anyway.

I knew it was a bad idea though, since I’ve been depressed for months now. And from the reviews I’ve read before, it sounded as if Pathology was just another B movie, what with sex, blood and gore all over the place. At the back of my head I’m even whining about how my innocent Lauren is now casted in films like this (but after Lie with Me, I shouldn’t be surprised, really). But yeah. The film was okay, I think, compared to other films of that genre, though I haven’t really watched films like that, except maybe for Wrong Turn, Saw 3, and, uhm, I dunno, Resident Evil 3 (hey, the zombies were disgusting)? So i can’t really complain. And it was the kind of film where you know someone will die in the end, and lo and behold, the director and screenwriter just killed almost about everyone just for the fun of it. So, yeah. I shouldn’t have watched that film while I’m depressed. But it was great to hear Lauren’s laugh again, and she really does act well. I just had to stare away from the monitor every time there were scenes that I wasn’t so comfortable with, just to avoid having nightmares for a week.

And if watching Pathology wasn’t enough, I had to watch Stay too. Mostly because of Ryan Gosling this time, though. Okay, I admit, I’ve loved that guy since I watched him in Young Hercules way back in high school, I think. And he looked like my old flame too, so it’s an added bonus. Well, a much more handsome version of my flame, that is. But. I LOVED the movie. It’s like watching Lucky Number Slevin all over again, what with the cinematography and all. I especially love the fact that everything seemed so surreal right off the bat. The sky reminded me of Vanilla Sky, making me instantly think that this is just a made-up world. There were never-ending spiral staircases (Jorge Borges’ Labyrinth!), pairs and groups walking together wearing exactly the same thing, deja vu, and everything I wanted to see in a surreal movie. I loved Ryan’s performance; I personally think he was able to redeem himself from The Notebook movie (I mean, okay, a lot of people loved that movie, but sorry, it just didn’t work for me). I’m thrilled that something like this exists; I’m just wondering why it wasn’t promoted well here. But it’s understandable too, I think, with the kind of viewers we have and all. Erm. Okay.

*points at title for this post* Probably one of my favorite lines from Stay. It makes me want to go on, in a weird kind of way.